Thanks to a very psycho reader who has “written two songs about me,” and loved and hated me every day for a long time. I finally told him that if he’s crying when I said “Just let it happen,” and freaking out and writing songs about me, he had to calm down. Here is what he wrote because I want you all to see what happens when you’re too obsessive! 😀
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Dear Cat,
As I broke down and cried a little in bed this morning something occurred to me.
There’s a fine line between obsession and determination.
Let’s say I go: ”I completely forget about it.”, and they call me for a screentest weeks later…
My performance might not be true representation of my talents and it might suck.
They’re gonna take the best and the rest is gonna be forgotten.
I have to work on my diction, pronunciation, articulation everday.
Read articles and listen to professional journalists, TV hosts and anchors everday.
Improve my the way I present myself, my presence, my style. I have to make it raw, natural and compelling.
I have to spend some time on those things everyday so when they call me, I NAIL IT!
I work on that, pray, chant and meditate about it then move to something else.
Study, songwriting, my vocals, this and that.
That’s how I keep myself in balance. Just because I absolutely want something doesn’t mean I’m obsessing over it.
One shall not judge too quickly! I work on it the best way I can, then mind other stuff.
When working with Spirits, I give them all the time in the world.
There are Spirits I addressed so they help me with different issues I already forgot about! I did not pressure them!
If nothing happened months and months afterwards… I can’t be blamed for being aggressive and unhealthy about it.
They either did not hear me or did not do their job properly or just did not care!
That’s the key! They key is in balance!
Whenever someone tells me I have to completely forget about anything related to so or so thing I go…
Yes! I completely forget about the spell, ritual or working itself.
As for the situation… If I have to work on it on a daily basis (study music, work on my journalism etc.)…
I can’t say: “Oh! I completely let go of it etc.” I work on it, then I do other things.
If things don’t progress, then the problem might lie elsewhere.
Yes, you’re right! I’m kinda anxious about the contest because it’s not the way I planned it.
As I told you, when it’s a contest everyone is gonna vote for family members, friends, their favourites etc.
And a Spirit can hardly help with that.
That makes sense. That’s why I said I’d rather be hired the conventional way but if there’s only one way, so be it!
I decided to take heed of your word and be much more relaxed, calm and cool about it.
More confident. Less worried.
You’re entitled to your opinion. It’s your judgement! But I don’t agree with every single bit of it.
People tend to use some words and terminology too quickly and they might hurt someone even though it’s not their intention.
I appreciate you and like you. Therefore, your words got to me a little even though I tried not to be sensitive at all!
I feel much better now. I realize I have to work on my talents everyday…
What matters is I stay balanced about it. That’s all!
I gotta study. I have exams every week. I almost through!
And thank you for all the advice on your blog! I’m sure many benefit from it! 🙂
By the way, I wrote two songs a long time before our conversation on the subject…
*****
Apparently he didn’t like my relax and have faith in yourself. He didn’t like when I told him (again, as it says all over my blog,) letting go is not forgetting about it, its just not making it a central issue of worry. Don’t overthink it. I was pretty nice. All I said that I felt might have been insulting was that I never found any newscaster to be compelling, and perhaps that sometimes people confuse practice with drilling and that I felt he was drilling himself. Sorry, friend. This is his reply.
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Going on and on about mental health, psychological problems and obsession! That was obsessive and impressive!
You’re the one obsessed and you’re fixated on making it a permanent state.
You sincerly think you’re the Voice of Reason? You’re deluded.
Hey! My reply was very, very, very kind, polite and civilized!
But you accused me of attacking you and seeking an argument! What the???
1st – Your problem is that you do not listen properly.
You offer spellcasting services. Of course people will come to you with all sorts of situations!
I was very clear to you. I needed your assistance in an area of my life. Period!
You’re the one that ASSumed that I was obsessing over it when I was not!
That was uncalled for! I very kindly told you it’s more complicated than you think but I would try to be more calm and relaxed about it!
I complimented you for your input on your blog and said I do appreciate you.
It was all HONEST!
But you chose to go on obsession craze and I swear to Heaven it’s freaking me out!
I kindly told you you might hurt people’s feelings when generalizing and using big words too quickly. Just saying: ”Be more calm and relaxed about it and everything will unflod.”, if you THINK (It’s just an assumption!!! You’re not omniscient! LOL!) that stress is what messing things up might have the same effect.
What did you do? COMPULSIVELY threw obsession around like a maniac that just escaped from asylum…
And the scariest thing is that you’re convinced that you actually make sense!
I swear to God YAHWEH Casey Anthony will have a better place than you in Heaven! LOL!
You PROVED you are RUDE, INSENSITIVE and completely INCONSIDERATE of other people’s feelings. SHAME ON YOU, CAT!
I did not ask for your pity. I was not expecting it but I was expecting some understanding.
Someone tells you they shed a FEW tears, that’s it!!! And that’s how you address them!
You OBSESSIVELY attack them with the same word even more! It’s FUCKING DISGUSTING and VILE!
I felt bad that morning. That’s okay! It doesn’t imply anything on my mental health!
I’ve been feeling much better for days now! I’m definitely not gonna feel bad over anything you say ever again since you’re obviously not worth it! No compassion! No empathy!
2nd – I was not seeking advices from you. I was looking for a hand in making something better but I obviously knocked on the wrong door. Okay!
I now have the lowdown on you… You seemed nice but I was mistaken.
I do not like your attitude.
I’m blaming everyone? I take responsibility for my actions as I’m responsible for my life. IF others are partially or completely responsible for something, I WILL SAY IT! Devil, damn it! And I won’t mince words!
GROW UP! GET OVER YOURSELF, CAT!
You’re so caught up in your head that you’ve convinced yourself to be some kind of an angel but you’re nothing else but a holier-than-thou brat! It’s childish! Low-class pride…
You even criticized what I told you about the way journalists and anchors have to be natural (it should not look fake) and compelling (so people are interested in watching them again in the future).
You’re out of your mind, girl! It’s pitiful and pathetic. But you see that as some kind of honour!
You should be ashamed of yourself!
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LOL, so, in conclusion, if you choose to be obsessed enough to write songs about me, and then stalk me and freak out on me, since we’ve never met and I don’t know you from Adam – which makes it oh, so normal then, right? – then know that I will put you on my blog, and I will tell others like you to
LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!
If you don’t like my advice, then just accept its the advice I gave you, and go looking for someone else’s advice. I’m NOT A FUCKING GURU, GODDESS, OR SAINT, and I don’t want to be. I never said I was. I am not a god. I am all about balance, actually, which makes this so much the more funny…I’m not about being too chill or too amped.
I’m not obsessed with obsession. I could give a flying fuck, but I try to help when I’m asked for my help, and sorry, but if you write fucking songs about me and we’ve never met, it sure as shit says a lot about you. If you have a cry about me and you beg for my help and then tell me my opinion is bullshit – going so far as to tell me I don’t deserve a place in Heaven or what is this Casey person? Who the fuck?…well, good for you. You have mastered the art of having an apopleptic crybaby tantrum. That’s so zen. That’s so mature. That’s great.
Listen kids, did you want me to do this to you? Cuz if you’re nutty enough to act like this, welcome to the front page of my blog. Stalkers, psychos, and nuts, this is for you.
As for anyone who REALLY wants my advice – if you don’t like or disagree with what I say, then just thank me for my time instead of flipping out on me, and quietly walk away. Its what I would do if I thought you were giving me bad advice. Attacking someone unneccisarily because the advice they gave doesn’t appeal to you is psycho.
As Sly and the Family Stone once said “Its the truth that the truth makes them so uptight.” Well, to the writer of these emails, its the truth what I said, and that’s why it upsets you. 😀
Anyhow, this one has been asked never to contact me again. 🙂 Hopefully kiddo has that good sense.
As for the rest of you, I’m sorry to have posted this but its the third “fuck you and your fucking advice” I’ve gotten in three weeks. So, fuck you and your fuck you.
THANK GOD, I also have 23 THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPERB ADVICE letters from the last week and a half. I put them up on my happy wall to remind me there is a reason I do this job. I don’t know who’s right – my haters or those who like me, – but I am thankful to the divine for just having the chance to be of help when I can be, and if I’m not helpful, to at least have the chance to try.
I am not trying to be a prophet, a messiah, or a leader. I do like helping people, and I do give the best advice I can. Sometimes I hear things that hurt to hear about myself when my friends tell it to me just to be friendly and let me know. At first, maybe I’m defensive, but you know what, that’s what good honest advice can do! It points out what you don’t want to see. If I can take it and accept it, good. I’m just trying to help.
If you don’t want my help, I don’t give a fuck. If you ask me for my help, I’m thankful to have the opportunity to try, but since I am not God (and never wanted to be,) I am not infalliable. I have said as much on several occaisions. So, if you ask for my opinion, then I will give it to you, and if you ask for me to give you some advice, I’ll give you the best advice I can – but, maybe its not the best out there. I hope it is – goodness knows I’ve been working with all types of people and if what I’m told is true I have helped hundreds of you, so I have experience, but if I’m wrong or don’t give you the best advice, all I can say is I’m human.
As for this guy? I just told you the truth, and didn’t say what I said to be mean. I didn’t say it to insult you. I said it to help you. Who’s the bigger jackass? I got my pointing finger out, and guess what direction its pointing to…
Peace,
~Cat
EDITED TO ADD: You know, I am actually thinking that my advice to this fellow was wrong in the sense that omitted that he really has a bad problem with self-control and thinking before acting. Since I also sometimes act on emotion rather than intellect, I do feel for him on that. Hopefully I have far more self-control, of course. So, the problem is obsessiveness, low self-esteem, prizing emotional response over intellect, lack of manners…acting before thinking…. Oh, and also he has the inability to admit to having certain failings.
So, look, I admit, I was wrong in my advice because I didn’t point all of that out. With a few of those points I avoided saying so because I didn’t want to come off sounding mean.
Now doubt edited versions of my responses will appear all over the interwebs from this fellow. Doesn’t strike me as the calm or reasonable type. Well, if he wants a fight I guess he can start one. Me? I’m all set, but would defend myself. At this point unless the dead horse (this guy) gets up and kicks me, I feel no need to go about beating it. If it tries to kick me though, I’ll just puree the dead horse! >:)
EDITED LATER TO ADD – Oops, had to call the police on this nutter. He did email despite the warning! He was never even a client of mine, I just helped him for free for a year. That was a lot of mean shit in graditude for all my help over a year or more! Thanks! LOL! Can you say…obsessive freako?
EDITED EVEN LATER TO ADD: This isn’t Frater Dantalion, or Fruitspank D or any past person pretending to be someone else, and YES, I know for sure. I thank you for your concern but you are wrong and I can solidly say so. This isn’t Effy D, and I have pictures and full names (and even b-dates now,) of both this kid and Effhole Dandalion so…thanks everyone but Fruitbar D is hopefully history forever (and has been quiet for awhile,) and this kid is recent history (hopefully forever.)
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