It Happens to Everyone Sometimes…

Hi Occulties,

So, this whole freakin week, I've been waiting for a long overdue check which quite frankly is very much needed…because, to be fair, when I'd spent the money it wasn't money I could spare, but I did anyhow because I needed to help out a loved one. As is all to often the case, money needed in an emergency takes approximately five-hundred forty-two million years to return, so it wasn't as if I was expecting it back incredibly quickly…yet it's late now, and no it's not a personal loan where I'm waiting on a friend, so I'm guaranteed it back. Every day I check the mail, and every day I am disappointed. 

And that would be bad enough because who wants to be waiting on a long overdue check? But I started to notice something…the more I wait for that check, and the more I find myself anxious at it not arriving, the more my income has slowed. 

As I'm not the kind of person to waste an opportunity, this is a nice little "law of attraction" (the real one, not the stupid thing so many of you think it is from reading pulpy nonsense on "manifesting,") lesson for us all. 

Let's start with the law of attraction (it's more like laws, but, whatever,) is not "good thoughts bring good things, and bad thoughts bring bad things," like people seem to think. I've said to more than one of you that, for example, searching is often "rewarded" with more searching. This is why people seem to so often complain that when they look for love, they cannot find love, but then when they stop looking, love finds them. I can't say there is anything wrong with wanting to love someone and be loved, so I can't say it's very rewarding for the person searching to find this great love with just more searching, however their thoughts or intentions are likely not "bad" there…so their good thoughts and intentions did not bring them the desired thing. 😛 Because the law of attraction doesn't really care about what you think is good or bad any more than rain falling from the sky cares if you don't want to be wet. 

The law of attraction is instead more like physics. If I drop a pebble on my floor it will sit on the floor. If I drop it into a stream it will fall in the water and make a ripple effect. Both are explained through the laws of physics. If I were to use modern books on the laws of attraction, they would do the equivalent of telling you if you say the pebble is bad it will bounce back and hit you in the face, but if you say it is good it will stick to your hand…neither of which is going to happen. If you drop this pebble, it falls, and the surface it falls on will react appropriately. With the law of attraction, you might get a few different reactions like attract to you, repulse from you, stagnate, mirrored action, etc. It's not really anything to do with "good" or "bad." In fact, fearing a thing is an attracting energy, and this is why I should really fear Jason Momoa showing up at my door butt naked with a bottle of vodka, as no doubt, then he would….but strangely, I just can't find the idea something I can fear. 🙂

So, back to the check… Here I am, knowing that I can cover a few outstanding bills when that check arrives….meanwhile the check hasn't come. As I've frequently told all of you, I can totally be zen about romance and love, but money is not something I'm easily at peace with, and I tend to think my money spells to death more than any other type of working. So with each passing day the check isn't here, I am wondering why it isn't here and getting more pissed about those bills I want to pay. 

Again, this is a guaranteed check. While sure, it could be misdelivered, the truth of the matter is that it would still eventually arrive to yours truly. 

So, you might compare this to with every passing day someone doesn't get their ex back, or that new job, or etc, they become more aggravated and anxious. With me, it's this fucking check. It doesn't matter if it's a spell or just you waiting for something, it's that MINDSET that is important. When I get angrier and angrier about NOT having it, and more and more anxious about the outstanding bills, and I look for it more and more and more…which is relevant as I am energetically drawing debt (what is unnerving to me) to myself, and simultaneously repulsing incoming money (that which I want but am increasingly aggravated by the absence of,) when in that mindset. 

The easy answer to this is throw down some roadopening, relax, and wait. And it's not the wrong answer. It's an overly simplified answer, but it is correct. Until I do this, I am going to be REPELLING incoming money that IS NOT guaranteed like the check is. This means because I'm aggravated, I'm actually WORSENING my situation, because I get paid per sale, and that means less paying sales…. so it's in my best interest to put it all out of my mind. 

Rather than do what most of my clients try to do and explain why it's perfectly normal to feel as I do, so I should just stop picking on myself, I am here telling you that I am doing absolutely the wrong thing by letting myself get anxious like this. Not only am I miserable, I'm prolonging my own misery, and I know that. 

And I'm going to do exactly what I should. I know that the check is coming, and I don't need to know when. I can survive without out it and while the money was dear and I had to very much live as an ascetic when I'd parted with it a few months ago, I have since begun to recover. I can manage for longer without it. So, I'm not going to think about it. I'm not letting it "rent space in my mind." I'm going to be calm, relaxed, and light this roadopener candle, and just keep my focus on the business I have…and watch next week be stellar for business. You may all feel free to ask me. I've  no doubt I will be so busy I can barely make time for people! :) 

I want you all to see that no matter how long you've been spellcasting and bringing desired changes into your life, this mindset can come upon you and make your life miserable. It isn't easy to detach from, but if I can do it, so can you. And some of it does require you looking at your own behavior and thoughts and making an effort to turn things around. 

The law of attraction isn't always your friend. Sometimes you get into a dark spot and find yourself making things worse because your energy is attracting the wrong stuff and repulsing the right stuff. When we become anxious and aggravated we push away the very things the lack of having is fueling said aggravation and anxiety. It's a nasty cycle to get caught in. Recognize it for what it is, try to calm yourself and reassure yourself, and watch your life change for the better. 

~C