Holy mackerel, just when you think people can't get any more crazy, I woke up (with 4 hours of sleep, no less,) to a whole boatload of it…even family and friends. 😛 For example, I do not control PayPal (and I'd not be living off of Hamburger Helper this week since it's bill week if I did, ha ha,) but I've had people emailing vicious email attacks for "not sending the bill," when it comes 45 minutes after I'd sent it. Yes, seriously…people were mad at me because they felt I was slighting them by not sending a bill… I mean, usually people seem to prefer to take as much time as possible in paying that. 😉
And so much of this was absolutely ridiculous. I had someone tell me she's going to go make up a bunch of bullshit about me and post it online because I didn't confirm her (3 week late) payment on my day off. Yes, seriously. I'll remember that if I don't drop everything at like 5am and tell you I got a payment from you finally, after waiting long after it was in arrears that I'm going to have you post fake stuff about me all over the interwebs. Noted. 😉
So, since I was about at the end of my rope with dealing with this (and I will assure you, if any of you saw me around 10am, you'd have crossed the street since I was obviously pretty much done with dealing with assoholic behaviors, especially with things obviously outside of my control like how long the payment processor takes to send you a payment, and was starting to get that little "rage-vein," popping out of my forehead, lol,) I said to myself…I need to chat with my old friend, Paimon. I mean, it was either that or I was probably going to spontaneously combust.
It was in giving her an offering – pretty much all I can afford to give at the moment because we are also dealing with bill week, and the hospital bills from when I was in the hospital in May are enough to buy a freaking house, – that I realized I really want to give her more. She has her own altar, but I've wanted to improve it for forever. I know exactly what she needs to have it set just perfectly. I wanted to sculpt an image of her as well to put onto said altar, to embroider her seal on the perfect cloth in silk thread…I have it all perfect in my head, but then I have people deferring payment for a million years only to become abusive when they do pay. 
So I told her as much…that I really wanted to do all this in gratitude for all that she does for me and my household, and lamented my limitations as I'd need x in extra cash to even be able to put aside what I'd need for that improvement.
Of course, whining to a spirit does not mean that they are like "here's some extra cash, yo, get me that shiznit!" If only everything was so easy. 😉 It means a lot more to any spirit if you put in your own efforts to do something for them. This isn't to say they won't help you on something when you ask for their help, ha ha, but saying "I want money to get you something cool," isn't really the same…it's like asking someone for money so you can buy them a gift. 😉 And if you think about it, I'm kvetching to my old friend Paimon, not really doing much else, so I didn't expect it to start raining cash or that suddenly everyone's going to be happy and kind, etc.
So what could I do? I mean, I can ask Paimon for money to pay my bills, and I can specify how much, and give an offering – I give her offerings for free all of the time, but asking her for money so I can make her a hella altar is not really the same thing. Maybe she wouldn't be peeved, but if I were in her shoes, I kind of would be if someone asked me that. 😛 I do know I owe her a debt of gratitude for all she does for me already.
Like the moment I spoke to her, instantly the crazy stuff in my inbox stopped. It may very well start up again, having likely jinxed myself by so saying (ha ha,) but it went from "batshit crazy all over" to "everyone is pleasant and fantastic."
So, I mean, I could fundraise, and that is an awesome way to deal with things, but everyone is dealing with bill week, so that might not do much. I can assure you when I run a sale right around when everyone is dealing with bills it doesn't net that much in extra sales. This isn't mystical, it's just economics! 😉 And I can't really borrow any money, because when shit went down (remember when I was in the hospital in May? Errrrghhh) everyone pitched in – some more than others, – and so it is like…I can't borrow either. I have a good idea of what I need though, and this is going to be mega big, and I really want to do it. I mean, it's a dream I have that is pretty big…
So it came to me, and it is what it is, think of this as a voluntary raffle. If you do not want to be in on it because there is going to be some people uncomfortable with that, I'm not going to put your cash towards this goal. I made the amount so that it will reflect needing to cover the bills to keep running the business, whilst also having enough to be put towards getting this mega altar.
Here it is – I will give one winner a free five week spellcasting package (called the "one month package" by many clients,) and if you're already set and have yourself a package deal or just like this other offer better, you can switch this to one year of free readings (limit to 4 readings per month, – if you already have a package deal on readings, the year starts when your prepaid readings are used up) and to make sure banned jerks don't try to get in on it, all you have to do is buy something. For every $50 spent, I will give you one ticket. And because some people just like throwing money at me (ha ha,) if you're just looking to get some tickets, I will sell 5 tickets for $25 so long as that's all you're buying. See, services cost ME money, but buying tickets does not. 😉 It is a random drawing, so the more entries you have in, the more likely you'll win.
Until I've gotten the funds (and I'm dedicating all the extra I have to this, because Paimon has pulled me out of jams and brought to me so many things I've wanted that she deserves it,) the raffle is going on. Please get in on it if you want in on it. 🙂
~Cat
Cat’s Rants: Confessions of an Occult Mastermind 